Isn’t it amazing ?

How did I made my way here again?
I swore that I shouldn’t be here again.
Yet, here I am...
Time after time
Years after year

Haven’t I been through enough?
What did I do in my past life to deserve all these.

This is still the only place I can rant without people judging me
Too emo, too dark, too needy.
This is not me that they know, so I don’t want to bother them with this.
Everyone get irritated with emo people.
Period.
I don’t want to be a bother to others..

I’m so tired..

Is it good people never ends well?

Should I be a bad person now ?

-hUiz-

Yet Again - 2017

It is very sad to be back here.
Because as I always say, this is the to-go place when I am out of writs.

5 years on, nothing hit me that hard to throw me back here.
But yet again. I'm here.

It's so sad, heart wrenching to know that I have to go through this again.
Why?

Am I not good ? What have I done wrong ?
Is being an understanding girlfriend not good enough?
Is being a trustful girlfriend to you not good enough
Is being stable and planning for the future not good enoug

But I never regretted.
So much memories that I hold close to my heart
I trusted with all I have, I love with all I have.

The silence is deafening
Words can't describe my lost of speech

I am not dying that the relationship ended.
Just the immerse depth of overwhelming sadness.
To everything.

And the ability to love and trust yet again.

Being in this blog again reminds me of who I am,
the values I hold,
the trust I have
the love I gave

hUiz

I am back here again. Well, not surprising as I always knew I wasn't a lucky girl. Just as I thought I would be happy from then on.. It was just the building up for more pain and sorrow. This is bull shit. i wish when i wake, these are all just a dream. I wish nothing ever happen and I have never met him.

Dream...

I dreamt about you again..

Isn't that amazing? After all these time...

I didn't think about you, didn't try to keep in contact..

But still... You appear in my dreams every noe and then.. Why?

Why do you still appear?

This isn't right at all..

We ended wayyy ago, although when I see you, there is still this tingling feeling but..

I am happy, you are happy now too..

So WHY DO I STILL DREAM ABOUT YOU!?!?

It's driving me nuts..

Haiz

fml.. i am back at this bloody blog again..
i felt like i lost him.. totally.
he made his choice and it is inevitable.
there will be a day where this will happen.
Just not sure it was this fast..

i can still rmb the days we spent together.
even thought not alot, but it was quality time.

the day he told me about what happened to his hand..
the day he cried in front of me..

i felt like i want to protect him, care for him and dote on him like my little brother.
i was so bias to him was clear for everyone to see..

Just never expect him to walk away from my life like that..

Feel the heart sank all the way down..
Really aint sure if any of the words i said express what i really feel.

I felt i lost him =(
sad max.

If only.. maybe it's my fault.. i shouldnt have said a thing abt his gf...
his precious gf..

What can i do now?

Awkward... =(

This is my second regret.

First was ah xing. now is him.
Sux max.

But down to reality. i am nothing to him.
we are not blood related. ( but i really treat him as one..)

Damn. i hate coming back to this bloody blog.

Jace

Heartbreaking...

It's really sad...
To hear something like that from someone you love..

Did he marry me to change me?
Did he have to say it so loud in front of others?

I know i am untidy, i like to leave things here and there...
But so? it kills for you to pick it up?
It kills that you have to be mad about it & say that you dont even know why you marry me?

Just because i left my med on the coffee table & mag on the floor?
Does it bothers you that much that you have to say something so bad?

Now i really wonder, why you marry me for? You knew what/who i was already.
And you are picking & complaining... Did i ever ?

Dont say you dont have flaws, but i never complain..
Dont ask me to list coz i never remember them.

I know my own flaws, i try to change, i try to improve.
But you shouldnt have said that i NEVER CHANGE! TELL ME, WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU COMPLAIN ABOUT THE SAME PROBLEM?

Jace

Back aGAIN

Whenever you see me back here..
Means i am out of my wits to talk to anyone or totally broken up inside..

I dont know why...
Maybe i am really not a good wife material..
I cannot be that perfect wife that cooks in the kitchen & tidy the house..

i wanna get away from all this..
away & far..

everytime i say this.. it onlys bleeds my heart..
Coz i know i can never go away...
My heart is so soft...

i whim at everything he says, he does..
he is always right.. i am always wrong ( well most of the time)

i guess thats how it goes..

byes...

Constant in Life

There was once, i posted something about Constant in Life..

Thinking that there will be a time, where my life will be in a constant.

No more huge ups and downs..

Just peaceful and calm..

Now..

I have to lower my head and admit..

There is no such thing a constant in life.

Nothing is constant...

My dream constant of happiness and smiles will never come true..

There will always be a glitch and i don't know how to get rid of it..

It is sapping up my soul & taking away my smiles...

Can someone cure me and remove my crazy thoughts and actions...

Or i have to pay of it...

Ciaos..

Why again

Why do you have to make me feel this way?

Keep asking me not to worry, dont have to worry...

But the things you say makes me do.

It's all about paper with value -.-

I hate it... but what can i say?

But that few thousand... is it really gonna kill?

Heck it..

Cheers

Pissed

What the hell.

Does words have to be so sharp & rude?

Fu*king say it like that to me.

I merely ask did he do anything to my laptop as i am unable to open my facebook at all.

He slap me with words " Do what? saying mine sux, yours sux"

What the hell.

F*cking pissed off.

We are husband and wife, shouldnt we not talk to each other with rude words and abusive tone?

shouldnt it be like kind words, paitence and loving?

FUCK off.

Why?

Almost exactly 1year and 2months ( maybe more) since i wrote here.

I cannot breathe and i feel that i am losing myself, the way i really am.

Should it be this way?

I dont know.

But i love baby.

=)

Jace

Goodbye!

Jace have MOVED.

Kindly Nudge, Text or Call for new blog add (if you are still interested to read on =) )
I Moved On. Too Many Things, Too Many difference and the purpose of Strawberries, Honey and Bees no longer exist. Although through much struggle to abandon or not, i think i have to. No matter wat.

Anyway, hope to see ya guys at my nice new one!

with lotsa love, hUiz.jace.

Freaking Blogspot

Okies!

There is definetly something really really WRONG with my computer for watever!
i havent been able to upload a single picture ever since my last entry!

What the hell is going on man..

(Gonna consult Vis, the hotel IT person, tomorrow)

Had enough of all the crap.

Haha.

Anyway, nothing much going on, still missing my san since she got back, only saw her ONCE.
Hope her celebration for her boy went smooth.

Times are really bad man.Everywhere is termination of job, pay cut, clear leave.
Thank goodness my dept is still revenue generating dept, so not affect YET ( doesnt meant that it will never)

All and all, i think i really love my dept alot. WAY better than anywhere else i know i gonna be.
Florence(My manager) said she gonna put july and me to train at Front office maybe from next month onwards. haha! It gonna be face to face with guest. Gonna learn everything from scratch.

BUT i will like it! Coz it means meeting guest! haha.

Enough of work.

Second on hand,
V'dae coming and i have NO idea how am i spending it.. coz.. i... got.. WORK! -.-
Okies, it really dont matter.

By the way, i am really bliss now.

-hUiz.jace-

Chu 1 CNY first day!

It's Chinese New Year!!!

The feeling of it is getting bland.. why?
Coz most of my cousins,uncles and aunties are all overseas..
Japan,UK,Perth,States,New Zealand,

Dearest Yisheng, i miss you so so much..
New Year is bland without "HEY YISHENG! happy new year! "

haha! Anyway, we had fun too! I won $$ from mj, so treated every1 icecream!














More to come! ^0^

Thank you for everything!

-hUiz.jace-

Mr J, You the man.

I always think that he was the person to LEAST care abt me.

But for once, when i sob so hard over at law's place (long time ago, yr1?) while all of us were trying to mug for exams.

He told jiawen to tell me that, it is totally not worth the tears.

At first i didnt believed, now i do

After which for the rest of the yrs that i know him, we have almost no much in common to really talk about, get together (unless club or batch outing)

So... for this situation now...

i really thank him for being so concern.

Coz seriously.

No one actually really care or asked.(other than bff &amanda)
not even jiawen ( ya, now u know how evil you are).

Stil i am thankful =)

Bro, you're the man!

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ANd...

MS BFF, SHARON LIM HWEE SAN!
YOU ARE UNDER SERIOUS WARRANT ARREST
YOU BETTER SEE THIS POST AND BLOODY HELL DROP ME A MAIL, A TEXT,A CALL OR WAT-SO-EVER TO TELL ME YOU ARE OKIES...

OR I WILL SINGLE HANDLY MURDER YOU WHEN YOUR TOES TOUCH SINGAPORE GROUND IN TWO WEEKS TO COME!

*BOILING WITH FIRE*

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Singapore 1st tattoo show pics and video will be up! stay right in! ^-^

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what can i do..

-hUiz.jace-

Christmas Eve

Hey PEOPLE!!!! (DUPER LATE POST)



OMG it is already 2009!!! DAMN... Just passes sooooo FAST!



Anyway~ it is a brand new year with a brand new start!

Leaving all unhappiness, sorrow,distrust,mistakes,doubts and emoness to past.



Miss Jace Wong is gonna go for a blast!



I did all crazy things,

I tried things i nv thought i would.

I changed most of my thinking.



Just wanna be just me.

For me and nobody else.



It is weird that i changed my habits, my likings and my way just for someone,

and end up being like one, staying like one.



although i cant turin and change back into who i was before, then i just go along with it!



LOVING the way i live, the PEOPLE i hang out with (especially my Kobe)



OKIES. ENough of my crap!



Christmas Eve at LAW's hse!!! OMG OMG OMG!! i am SOOOO missing all those times!
Where we just eat and talk, play mahjong and ALL bunk into Law's room, squeezing in the bed
=) BUT none of that sort this yr except for the eat, talk and mahjong. haha!

Jordan and Angelina (so tweet tweet), Cherwei, jiawen!

Samuel,Huaxiong,kelvin and Law


Patricia,jordan,benny and jiawen


LOVE seeing everyone!


And Yes! i Finally gotta meet up with mr Yishiang when he was back for a short holiday break from his pilot thingy in aus. MAN, hr REALLY flys a plane! and all those gear.. Awww man! COOL!

Anyway, this fren of mine have NEVER eaten Sushi Tei in his entire 20yrs, so I took him for a 'treat' (he pay anyway =P) haha!!

We tried to get ppl to photograph us, but kinda fail. LOL. SHY LOR. -.-


(On Self Timer, by the way)



Mr Yi, takecare on ya flight back to aus on sat k ^-^
Dun worry,
fly it right,
fly it safe,
and it is all yours to take =)

MORE to come (pics and bloggings)!!!!

iLoveKobe *Mr NBA with his Duper Slam Dunks*
*google it if you dont know who is he*

-hUiz.jace-

Meet up~

Today met up with ksk to pass him the belated bdae present! =)

Okies, i miss the whole batch and every single person in club!
Set a day and meet up man!

Had a really good chat and catching up about stuff.

haha!




[his present]


p/s dun be jealous, terrence, you have your bdae present soon =)


I enjoyed my day with baby.



-hUiz.jace-

Genting Highland Part 2

OKies! PART 2!

Theme PARK!~

It is not as fantastic as i thought it would be, didnt had that thrilled feeling~
But i had great company =)






























Ripley's believe it or not!






that man is fake! same for the camera! haha.














[Mun Mun and Me]


Christmas is here again..
So it is a joyous or mood killing festival?


In short, i LOVE the cool weather and people who went..
Enjoyed every single bits~

And lastly.
i am giving it all and all for the plans to come true =)


-hUiz.jace-

Genting Highland Part 1

People!!!!

I am finally back from Genting Highland! ^-^
Was away for 6days if ya dunno.

I LOVE the cold breeze! it is freaking cold but nice! Love it!

On 30th Nov, we took 6am bus off to Genting. We got a nice bus with comfy seats, leg and back rest and TV! Personal tv and earpiece! It really helps to kill time.

We watch this gory, ful of blooded and killing movie. Seriously, i dunno why we watch.
Maybe wanna see how the bad guys die. haha!

[Angmoh girl and me!]


[My mun mun went with me =).]


Finally!! After 7hours of grueling bus ride, spinning all the way to the top we reached safe and sound. And which, we started the dance opening ceremony rehearsal almost right away.



[random place to take pics! it was in the middle of the pathway]


[Us]


[Jian Hao is TALL ]


[Reddies!]


[ I miss the breeze ]


[ i love this sweet little thing ]


[ME]



Check out part 2 coming soon!
i really need to sleep! Dance at 8am..
[hate it whenever he say we didnt put effort in dance or watsoever!]


It bring warmth to me..
You know?


-hUiz.jace-

Motor Culture

Today went to Motor Culture!

All sorts of motobikes in different shape, size,colour and type.
Duper cool!!!

AND i saw STEVEN LIM!!! that banana guy in Singapore Idol??? MAN! he was there in the dunk pond! Getting dunk by ppl who threw bull eye's shot to his seat.

Didnt take pics as i felt sorry for him.. =X

[Just random]


[acting like some dumb tourist ]


[i finally go to this god damn place after so long]


This is the COOLEST stunt i ever seen in LIVE!
He is really really cool and have many amazing stunts!

[Man, he has lovely blue eyes]

[4hunks]

[it feels nice with big bikes all around ]

Christmas is here soon..

Sometimes it's just aint good to know so much,

coz the truth usually hurts the most.

When will all this trash stop coming to me?
Losing grip..



-hUiz.jace-