Yet Again - 2017

It is very sad to be back here.
Because as I always say, this is the to-go place when I am out of writs.

5 years on, nothing hit me that hard to throw me back here.
But yet again. I'm here.

It's so sad, heart wrenching to know that I have to go through this again.
Why?

Am I not good ? What have I done wrong ?
Is being an understanding girlfriend not good enough?
Is being a trustful girlfriend to you not good enough
Is being stable and planning for the future not good enoug

But I never regretted.
So much memories that I hold close to my heart
I trusted with all I have, I love with all I have.

The silence is deafening
Words can't describe my lost of speech

I am not dying that the relationship ended.
Just the immerse depth of overwhelming sadness.
To everything.

And the ability to love and trust yet again.

Being in this blog again reminds me of who I am,
the values I hold,
the trust I have
the love I gave

hUiz